HPT negative

Well folks at first glance it appears this time didn't work either.  I will stay on my meds and still go to both my blood test appointments to confirm, but the HPT this morning was a very clear BFN (big fat negative to those of you not familiar with the lingo).
There is a bright side though - now I can help Rob remodel our basement...I'm much better at demo when I'm not afraid of hurting the baby! :)  And, I can continue on my quest to drop some lb's.
I guess from here we'll try our last Frozen Embryo and if that doesn't work it's on to fresh cycle round 3.  I bet we can do our next FET fairly soon.  Probably just have to get a period and wait for all the meds to be out of my system.  My butt will be happy to get a break from the shots at least!
But - I'm not going to forecast the future.  We'll just have to sit around and wait for what the doctor's say....again.  Tell ya what...IVF is not fun anymore.  It has now become something I just want to "get to the end of" so I can get my money back.  (There's the crabby Jennine you all know and love!)

Stay tuned...

Wanna see my butt again?

While this isn't as bad as when I "fell off my bike" it's still pretty bad.  This is what 10+ days of PIO shots will give you.  Fun Fun!  And just think, if I'm pregnant I get to continue these shots for WEEKS!  And the bruise isn't even the bad thing, it's the soreness in the muscle tissue that really gets you.  But, in all actuality, it isn't really that bad.  Kind of hurts when I climb into my car, and when I plunk down in the recliner, and when I roll in and out of bed.  Other than that, it's liveable.

We are officially 1 week in to our waiting period.  Transfer was a week ago today.  For those of you looking to see if I'm having any symptoms, I hate to break it to you but I have none.  No sore breasts, no cramping.  That's fine.  Cramping just scares me, and who wants sore boobs?  No one.  Ever. 

That's right, I have no symptoms...although Larry at work tells me I have "the look."  (I think he means a pregnant glow or some wifey-tale of that nature....or maybe all the McDonald's I have been "stress-eating" has given me "the look..." months before I should have "the look" if you know what I mean!  Oink!)

I am 100% certain that I will end this guessing-game nightmare with a home pregnancy test on Friday morning.  I just want some answers, whatever they may be.  Remember how I have no patience?  Just tell me already! 

This cycle has been completely different though.  Rob and I are just going through the motions.  Pills and shots.  That's it.  Nothing too exciting.  Peeing on a stick is no big deal.  I used to make it such a production.  Ooooh, what if it's negative?  How will I cope?  But, I have been through everything now.  A failed cycle.  A successful cycle ending in miscarriage.  Nothing scares me.  Now, a pee-stick is just a means to an end.  Am I pregnant or not?  Tell me, oh magic stick!

One thing is for certain, I "manage" stress by TOTALLY overeating.  That is one thing that I find detestable about myself.  I had to talk myself out of getting McDonald's fries as a "snack" on my way home today.  Gross.  I watched Keeping Up With The Kardashians on Sunday night and it was all about how fat Rob has gotten.  I, my friends, am Rob Kardashian.  I think food makes me feel the way Bud Light used to make me feel, without all the annoyingness.  It's just a happy thing to injest into your body.  Bud Light made me unlikeable, and McDonald's makes me "Un-swim-suit-able."  I can deal with that.  There's always next summer to be swimsuit ready...after I take off the baby weight.  :)

transfer all done!

Not too much to report.  All went very well. Dr. Stassart very positive. Little guy thawed well and was of good quality. Yesterday and today required alot of bed rest. Getting a little boring. :) First blood test on friday 6/14 and confirmation test on 6/17.  Knowing me, I will HPT it on the 14th though.   :)

3rd time's the charm?

It is the night before we leave for MN, again. Rob and I both had to-do lists to accomplish before we left and we got everything done... from fixing the bathroom faucet to mowing the lawn to washing the dogs to finishing the laundry. We are packed and the van is loaded, complete with bed in the back for my ride home.
We both will work in the morning and then will be on the road by noon. Tomorrow night we're dining at Fogo De Chao in Minneapolis. We're excited for that!
I'd say wish us luck on Tuesday, but we went to church today and the message was clear.  God goes before me, He stands behind.  He is always by my side. I trust in Him to get us through this. I guess luck doesn't have much to do with it.  :)